Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Tick, Tick, Tick...

Time is ticking.

I feel a huge amount of self-imposed pressure to have achieved my goals by June 3rd.

While I know it is self imposed, I feel angry at it, as if someone else were "making" me do this.

And boy am I ever failing at it. I'm so stalled right now.

I feel like if I don't achieve my perfect body by the time I turn 30, I will have somehow "wasted" my 20s. And teens, for that matter. I've never been happy with my adult body. Actually, I wasn't happy with my 8, 9, 10, 11, 12 year old body either.

I'm depressed, anxious, and really negative about things right now.

I'm exercising, but the weight isn't moving.

Maybe if I keep exercising... and really restrict the calories again, hardcore.


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