Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Disbelief and Defeatist

Week 4 Weigh In
206.6 lbs
-5.4 lbs
Total this run: 17.2 lbs
Total from top: 40.4 lbs

To go: 71.6 lbs

I am having trouble accepting that I am doing this well. I am waiting for this tower to come crashing down on me. Honestly. I don't deserve to succeed at this, right now. 

I don't have much else to say. I feel like I have inwardly given up, or that I'm cheating somehow, or like it's just not possible. Maybe the batteries in my scale are dying and it's not accurate. 

I'm feeling kind of down right now. For some strange reason, I fell like there's no way I'll be able to carry this forward. I don't know why. I don't like it.

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